The Discipline, The Smile, and The Habit --- Turbulent Thoughts #2
Discipline is the way to go! Rainy days or Sunny days, just keep going?!
what keeps me writing? probably this is hardest question sometimes. I find it challenge to put something on the screen with my typewriter. If I would have the choice, I rather hold a book and read, and forget about writing. How ironically. Nonetheless, I realise if this isn’t for writing, or having the desire to connect to the world, perhaps I don’t have to read, and learn more about the world. At this moment, I feel that I might have fallen into the endless circle of chasing between to read more, and then to write more, or because having to write better, that I have to read more quality materials :D
Recently the word ‘discipline’, and ‘persistency’ hits me a couple of times. I guess I might have ‘provoked’ the universe by not doing things consistently, or I have forgotten my resolutions? Which is through words, and writings, I made a promise to myself to use that very little ‘energy’ , to push my own horizon wider. thanks for this small dose of inspiration, I learn that:
“When I’m motivated”, I write.
“When I’m UN-motivated”, I.. still write.
That’s a called “Discipline”.
maybe end of the day, I don’t really need to wait for a very energetic day to start something. All that I need to do, fixed some time, allocated some time, and start with that first line of sentence, what’s in my mind. Prompt myself with a template questions.
“What’s the one thing that made me learnt and inspired me?”
“What’s that one beautiful thing that I admire, that I notice today?”
“What’s that one wish, I'd like to make? “
These are my prompts hoping to be able to help awaken the deeper that of my mind, or some memories that I thrown to the back of my mind. Helping me to search through my memories, and to uncover the beautiful things that I have ever encounter.
so.. that one thing made me learnt, is to start small, and you can still call it as done.
that maybe I said to myself that I want to start learning a new language, that I want to be able to read and write in Japanese, and maybe to have a proper conversation. I need to start somewhere. Potentially I may not have enough energy or time to do a formal class, or take comprehensive exercise, just that I could also start pickup a phrase, check its meaning, make a sentence out of it, and called it ‘done’. That can really trick my mind into doing it, and taking the profit in long run, by just having the persistency!
The one beautiful thing that I realise today, was the smile of my niece and paying full attention to every spoonful of her food.
Despite at her very young age, I admire her spending maximum effort to hold the spoon, and attempting to feed herself well. Each small step, that she made it, she would be happy, and content full, slowly she gets to finish one big bowl of her own meal, and turn to me showing her full satisfaction. That led me to think that, even if we’re not GREAT at start, and we could choose to ‘START’ to be great. By starting small, doing it wholehearted, the result and the success should really come as a by-product of it. and the same message, was reinforced by my colleague that she told me, all that we need, is probably just enjoy the current process, not overthinking about the result; by repeating, and by doing what’s possible now, and today, that’s all that’s needed to be a step closer to the ‘result’ (by product). Most important don’t get dismay about it, but be happy that you have engaged the challenges, and taken good care of your self.
about that one wish , I’d like to make
I wish I could told my younger self to stay ‘disciplined’, knowing that to stay motivated is REALLY REALLY HARD!! I may be easily let down by one, or maybe two or ten possible factors in a day, because of A, B, C or D. .. but more importantly good day or bad day, maintaining that discipline, perhaps a little bit of discounted actions, but just keep it going——- maintaining that ‘streak’, that ‘habbit’. I may have more contentful days :) Remember to practise Self-Love & Self-Care!
Cheers